the art of thought

my brain

Today I printed off my very first t-shirt as a sample to eventually market. I was pretty stoked to see my brain child realised on an actual t-shirt.  I admired it, making my plans to take over the t-shirt design industry, when suddenly a little thought popped into my brain...What the heck are you doing? it asked me, do you really think people will want to pay for these? They are going to see right through your silly drawings you amateur! and as quickly as the confidence in my abilities had been affirmed, it disappeared, running for high hills.

Brains are such amazing things don't you think? They create such wonderful miracles in life, propel great actions, yet, one little doubt can render you quite useless.  This has happened to me in a variety of areas: dating (I morph into "Josie Grosie" when talking to boys), in my job (there are times I wonder 
how I even got my job), and when creating.  Especially when creating!  When I was four I was drawing figures with hands that had five fingers, eyes that had eyelashes and even went as far as to put the cupids bow in a pair of lips.  I was doing things that other kids could not, yet I still allowed doubtful thoughts to keep me from achieving. On year three I started drawing stick figures not again because I never drew them in the first place, but so I was just like the other kids. Even at such a young age I thought I was no good and chose the safe path. That, has never been productive for me. Even now I constantly check my own ability to achieve... Like today. Yet, I know I could be great, at something...

So there comes a time where I tell my brain to quit and stop the self sabotage, to start being a productive brain again, and I think to myself, everyone can do amazing things, so long as they master what is potentially their biggest and sometimes their only enemy...negative thought...

So onwards I go...off to change the world one t-shirt at a time...Hooray!